everytime i came on dA i looked at that old entry, i wanted to change it but i didnt have anything to say.

well, now i guess i do?? i have just (finally) organized my gallery
it was TORTURE!!!
hehe, anyway, so yea, its organized, and iv started organizin a lot of things in my life. and im doing much better in school now
mebe i get a scholarship after all! too bad it wont be for canada... *sigh*

anyway, thats it for this entry


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i've been really stressed. my weight is going up and down *sigh*
i've been pretty sick too, and yesterday this guy upset me so much that my period came down. i mean, is that even possible??

*sigh*
i know, this isnt much of a journal entry, and i just thought i was doing better... *sigh*

you're the one going somewhere foreign, and im the one being left behind. *sigh*
how am i supposed to function without you here? i fell too hard for you...
our official start: [link]
and hopefully, this wont be our end...

je t'aime...

look what you've done, you broke it...

is this what death feels like?
i hope that eventually my tears will drown this sorry ass place, instead of evaporating off my cheeks. i hate my heart, stupid stupid heart... i could kill thee. *sigh*, but if i kill my heart, i'd kill me too. would a sword through my heart kill the pain? what about a million tight hugs? to squeeze my heart in place so it can remain silent? i feel like im going crazy. my mind, stupid stupid mind. it's run away again... *sigh*